i have serious responsibility issues

OK fine.NO post in a long time .I get u ppl.Neither is anyone posting anyway.The blogosphere has once again died.I suppose this will be short.Yes it will be.I have serious responsibility issues.THey trusted me and i fucked up ok.I noe i skrewed up and disappointed alot of ppl and might not even get picked again.Fucking hell.Its time to stop leading my irresponsible freeloading life and do it for once.I was given the opportunity to shine and now i blew it.